The End

Been thinking quite hard about what to write to end 2011. It's a must to do it but I have the feeling to write something to end it. The inspiration came yesterday, inspiration kononnya. HAHA!

Two zero one one. Many have a list of stuff, a list of commitment, a list of wishes and dream that they wanted to accomplish for the year. As for me, I have a few commitment that I made for myself and God. Well, some I did it, some, you know, it will somehow get lost somewhere in the middle. BUT,  IT's a year with overflowing blessing for me. No matter in studies, in health, in my spiritual life and etc. I have uncounted blessing throughout this whole year. Big blessing, medium blessing and small blessing No such blessing to me, cause every blessing is awesome blessing. Some might think that the blessing isn't blessing but it's something that will happened so because it is meant to be like that. For me, it's a blessing, something that God has planned for me, something that God had gave me freely without taxing or charging any fee from me.

This year, I've been through so much troubles in studies. If you ever follow my blog and you will know what actually happened. If not it's ok, cause I am going to summarise it here. I met with some serious problem as in I am going to fail in one of the subject in this semester due to my group fault for not preparing reagent for the lab. The lecturer was so firm that she wanted to fail the whole class. It was a terrible Sunday, and I can't do anything about it except praying and leave it to Him. Miraculously, He answered my prayer and my whole class and I went through this and had a small punishment, cleaning the lab. It was really, truly blessing and I really thank Him for this! Well not only that, the studies getting harder, and I am really kinda of stress up. Cox I am not the kind of brilliant student, if people need one hour to memorise something I will need maybe double or triple of the time. I am that kind of student. He showed me how amazing when I depend on Him. I wouldn't say my result is the best, but it's enough to please Him, my parents and myself, even I think I can do better than this. He gave me the right words, right comfort, right discipline at the right time, right moment.

Move on, if you know me well, you will know that I have this frequent migraines and it's really a torture for me. For an unknown reason, the migraines attack seems to be more frequent and I barely able to bear it. I can have like three four times in a month. That's pretty bad when it came to exam and all kind of lab journals, lab reports and preparations to do. I don't know how I went through all these but I am sure that if it is not by the strength that He gave it to me, I surely can't go through it. Thousands of thanks to Him.

He, My comforter. As you know, I am still kind of having problems with this break up thingy for such a long time. I think been one year plus. The little pain that's in my heart, I have no where to turn to but only Him. So much of tears and energy been dried up because of this matter. No worries, I am fine. It just need some time to be ok. The thing is, I really want to Him for His faithfulness because He never leave me and the only place where I can cling on. He knows me better than any other else. I just love Him that much.
A very big hug I wish I can give it to people that been around me and go through all these with me. For being there whenever I need it, the ears that been listening, the heart that had felt for me and all the love.

Personally, I felt that I'd grow so much. I believe that I am stronger and tougher. 2011, a year of with overflowing blessing and love. I bet you had a same awesome year too.

That's the end of my 2011.